Strength.Trust.Hope.Love.

1:23AM Well today was pretty fun, everyone came to inhouse, the shisha is getting pretty crappy there. i’ve been going out  hells lot, just can’t be bothered anymore. saw Liang today, after so long, happy he won and got most votes for he’s modeling shyt. it’s funny how every time im out with my friend’s, SHE, just pops into my head, every single time. why, is it cause, i love her too much? i can’t tell. i can’t tell myself nowadays. she doesn’t know what’s going on, but im wanting it to be kept that way. im tired of hurting, just fucking tired. i know im not the only one hurting, but im hurt enough thank you. i just realized, she hasn’t seen me actually happy. well i am happy when im with her, but that’s like ounce every week when she comes back to Malaysia. it feels different, but sometime’s. it doesn’t make any difference. i wonder what happened to telling me everything. i miss Hannah, the one i fell inlove with in March. prom’s tomorrow, gotta get my head and shyt together. catch you later tumblr.x

4:44AM Hey tumblr, long time. life’s being okay. only exciting thing that’s happening, is my music life. so many things happening, im so excited. apart from that, im guessing it’s okayyy. about her, well. i don’t know. too be honest, i haven’t known for months, things are different. she says she loves me, it shows, but not as much as how we were last time. i miss those time’s. i really do. those were the times, where i was actually happy in life, she makes me happy. i was wondering, what if i told her, if i wanna stop having this thing with her cause i don’t love her anymore. (not saying i don’t, i do very much), would she fight for me? she always says it’s your life and it’s your choice, im guessing she wont, well she won’t fight as long as i did. 8 months. hard to believe but yes, she’s that’s special. There’s something about her that makes me go crazy for her, especially when i look into her eyes, she one in a million. like i said to Ashley, she’s a keeper. <3 x